“I’m Only Me (When I’m Not Sober)” Abigail Barlow

I just got home
Its 3 AM
I must confess
For I have sinned but
Tomorrow night Imma do it again, again
I’ve been obsessed
With stupid men
Little depressed
But then again
Maybe it’s just ‘cus
I’m making bad decisions
‘Cus

I’m only me when I’m not sober
And I’ve been drunk since last October
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t feel the same, the same, the same
I’m only me when I’m not sober
I’m blacked out when the party’s over
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t numb the pain
I’m only me when I’m not sober
Mmm…

I’m all alone
Don’t have no friends
I’m always home but
Can’t pay my rent
It ain’t a joke ‘cus I’m broke
And I smoke but I’m tryna quit, quit
I got a problem
And it ain’t healthy
I call my momma
She tries to help me
But I don’t care much about the consequences
‘Cus

I’m only me when I’m not sober
And I’ve been drunk since last October
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t feel the same, the same, the same
I’m only me when I’m not sober
I’m blacked out when the party’s over
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t numb the pain
Oh…

I fall asleep
On a bed with no sheets but
It’s not a disease
It ain’t addiction
If I can kick it whenever I please
‘Cus

I’m only me when I’m not sober
And I’ve been drunk since last October
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t feel the same, the same, the same
I’m only me when I’m not sober
I’m blacked out when the party’s over
I take a walk out in the rain, the rain
But it just doesn’t numb the pain
I’m only me when I’m not sober
Mmm…